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I got three tattoos this year and I didn't choose a single one of them.

Not the fun kind. Not the "I've always wanted this" kind. These three were part of my external beam radiation treatment for stage three cervical cancer, and I didn't even know they were coming until the day they showed up.

If ...

I started chemo the week of Christmas.

Not the week after. Not "let's ease into the new year." The actual week of Christmas. There was no time to sit with it, no time to research alternatives, no time to even really feel scared yet. I was handed a pile of pamphlets, told treatment needed to start w...

The moment everyone expects you to feel relieved

Picture this. The last round of treatment is done. The nurses say goodbye. People send
flowers. Everyone around you exhales. And somewhere in all of that, someone says the
words you've been waiting months to hear: "You're done."

So why doesn't it fe...